The Rollercoaster Continues

My life just cannot seem to stay on the ground. This Friday I go in for surgery. What kind of surgery you ask? Well, cancer...again. I have decided that if my life was simple I would be totally bored out of my gourd. But alas, I may have cancer again so the ride continues. Seeing as how this is my second experience with testicular cancer there are a few deep and meaningful thoughts that I would like to share.

One- Did you know that they have prosthetic testicles? I know I didn't. It will be very weird going into surgery with one and coming out with two.

Two- My wife has this deep question. In heaven we have the hope of being made whole. Those who are paralyzed can walk, those who are blind can see, etc. So what good is it to have restored testicles in heaven? It's not like I can really use them for anything.

Three- The line in the movie "Notting Hill" about the great tragedies in life like testicular cancer has a whole new level of funny.

Four- I have no control over my life. This kind of crap happens in this world and as a follower of Jesus I have no control over life, but I will still follow Him. Christians keep pushing healing as a part of their "special" relationship with God. But guess what, I don't need to be healed to follow Jesus. He helps me through the storm, but that also means that we go through storms. I would rather cling to Him to help me through, then to deny that the storm is happening and claim that I won't have to go through it.

Five- Life sucks sometimes. We all seek justice in our lives, where is the justice of having testicular cancer twice? I don't think it has anything to do with justice, it has to do with how you handle the crap that is thrown at you. Will you do it with dignity with your head held high. Or will you torture yourself with the question of, "Why is this happening to me because I don't deserve this!" Well of course I don't deserve this, but as a Christian I know that we live in a world that has been warped by sin. There is nothing I can do about it but hold fast to my faith and give Jesus praise.

So the roller coaster continues. I guess I just need to lift my hands up and enjoy the ride, whatever that ride may be.