Mirror Image

I see two people in the mirror (mind you, I am talking about when I am alone, not when my wife is standing next to me...just wanted to clarify). I see the man who has done stupid and horrible things, and the one who has been forgiven and strives to serve his guts out for God.

I think the two of me in the mirror are fighting over my life.

I always see the horrible things that I have said and done, mainly because I am like an elephant. I know who I am inside and that scares the crap out of me. I have the potential in me to destroy my marriage, my ministry, and my friendships. I see my face in the light of sin.

I also see the man who is forgiven. I see my face in the light of forgiveness. I see the man who wants to change and not stay the same. The man who never wants to quit being better today then I was yesterday. I see my potential to change my marriage, my ministry, and my friendships.

I can change the world. All I have to decide is which person I want to win.

Do I want to see all of my failure, or all of my success? Do I want to settle for a good marriage, or work at making it a great marriage? Do I just come to church to teach kids and get a paycheck, or do I show them the love that Jesus has for them and pour love into their life? Do I want to look in the mirror and see that my life has been only about me, or that it has been about Jesus?

I see the two people that I am, but the bible says that God only sees one. Once my sin has been forgiven that other guy is nowhere to be found. God only sees me in the light of forgiveness. God believes my potential is only capped by how far I will let Him work in my life.

If I only look at myself through my sin then I am limiting how far God can take my life. When I look in the mirror I still want to see two people. One who is forgiven...and Jesus.