Crutch

I follow God because.....

Every time I think about my own faith I think about why I did not believe. Forget about the reasons why I now believe, I like to think about what kept me from belief in Jesus.

I didn't believe because the idea of an Omnipotent being who created the universe is beyond my understanding, so it must not be real. I didn't believe because let's face it, people who believe are pushy, condescending, hypocrites who preach love and practice hate. People kill in the name of faith. I didn't believe because belief meant that I was responsible for my actions, and I didn't want to change.

I looked at other beliefs, and even at no belief. This is what I found.

I believe because I know that I am limited and the idea of the universe just accidentally just happening....takes more belief then I have. I believe because the Jesus of the Bible teaches us to love with our words and our actions. There are stupid people who hurt in the name of Jesus, but Jesus is not those stupid people. I believe because I understand that I have the capacity to become a responsible person. Which means that I am not selfish anymore, but I am choosing to learn and change.

Jesus is my crutch because I have looked at all the other crutches (including not believing in anything) and his crutch seems more stable.