Losing JD

Today we have to give JD back to his birth dad. I don't think that I have ever dealt with this type of loss before. The pain that I have in my heart feels crippling. I thank God every day that we have had this chance to be apart of his life. I know that I will pray for him every day because I truly am afraid for his life and the situation that he is entering into. I don't believe that him going back to his birth family is the right thing, but I am not in control of the universe (thank you Jesus). I woke up this morning and all I wanted to do was to hold him. I feel like I didn't do enough for him. The love that we have for this little baby man is that of a parent, and losing a child is hard to say the least. All I can do now is to pray that God will help me deal with this heart ache.